Sometimes I just can’t find the words

19th August 2017

I shared a blog post earlier in the year about why I was ditching my blogging schedule and how I wanted to take a slower approach to blogging.

To be quite honest, I didn’t think it would slow down as much as it has. I feel like I’ve barely published any posts this year at all.

It’s like I’ve got out of the habit of writing. I’ve lost my mojo. I have ideas but when it comes to turning my thoughts into words I just can’t seem to do it.

I try. Believe me, I try. I have over 200 draft posts sitting on my computer to prove it.

Some that just comprise of a title.

Some that I started writing but lost sight of where I was going it with it.

Some that I completed but that I felt I couldn’t share or didn’t want to share.

It’s disheartening to see the number of draft posts growing, knowing full well that most of them will never see the light of day. I want to write, and I want to share what I write, but I’ve just been finding it so difficult.

I’m going to be honest with you; I’ve not been in a good place this year. Right from the get go, 2017 has been an odd one. I had all these plans and aspirations for the year, but then something happened that changed my perspective on everything. It changed my life.

I’ve struggled with the changes that 2017 has bought, and it’s just felt like one thing after the other. I haven’t had time to stop and think and reflect. I’ve been dying for some time and some space, outside of my usual environment, to do some serious evaluating.

I think my upcoming trip to New York will help me with this. Sure, we will be busy, and we will be tired, but I’m sure it will give my brain a chance to reset. In fact, I know it will. Travel always helps me.

Plus writing about travel is my absolute favourite thing and I’ll have lots to write about after visiting New York again!!!

Once I’m in a better place mentally, I’m sure I will get back into writing again, and I’ll feel confident enough to share my creativity with you again more frequently.

Also, I’m just going to try to write more, and not worry about whether what I’m writing will make it on the blog or not. I just need to write. Practice, practice, practice, and all that.

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  1. I’m sorry you feel like this. I hope you will feel better after going to New York. Hugs xx

    ps. Remember that we can always meet for tea or a walk in the park if you feel you need to talk with someone and you’d like to talk with me.

  2. I feel the same so many times. I have like 50 drafts of reviews, and another 50 of my life stories and I just don’t finish them and if or when I do I don’t like them!

    When are you going to New York? I really love reading your travel posts and check your photos on Instagram!

    • Holly

      I’m glad to hear I’m not the only one who has loads of drafts that need to be finished off!

      Aww that’s so lovely of you to say. I’m going a week today. 😊

  3. I’m sorry you’re feeling this way Holly, and that 2017 hasn’t been the best for you. Hopefully with a holiday coming up, and your lovely new house, things will pick up for you. I think the whole ‘blogging community’ has become a bit of disheartening place, and though you might not be happy with what you’re writing to post, I’m sure anything you do creatively away from the blog will offer you more freedom – and, as you said, give you the chance to practise. I hope you’re okay! =] x

    • Holly

      Thank you, Katy. 😊

      I totally know what you mean. Every time I log on to Twitter there seems to be some drama that, in the grand scale of things, doesn’t even matter. It’s hard to block out the noise but sometimes it feels impossible. Hopefully I’ll be too busy in NYC to spend time online!

  4. I lost my mojo too a little while ago, at the beginning of this year- it can be so hard to keep going when theres that pressure to constantly be posting. I found it was important to remember why i blogged in the first place πŸ™‚ I really hope things turn around for you so sorry to hear this year hasnt been the best for you. sending much love

    • Holly

      Thank you. πŸ™‚ Yes, I think the constant pressure got to me. I feel like I’ve become so much more critical of myself this year which hasn’t helped either.

  5. Elise

    ah, it’s the writer’s block mystery. 2017 hasn’t been good to me either and sometimes, i’m too lazy to update my blog because real life sucks the living heck out of me. i know this post was a few days ago but i hope traveling does refresh your mind. i wish i can travel in order to reset my mind and escape temporarily but i don’t seem to have that kind of privilege at the moment. it does get frustrating, not being able to publish a post but i try to take a breath, pause and tell myself that it’s all about quality and not quantity. since i don’t wanna update my blog with filler posts, i’d rather take longer time to update as opposed to force myself and publish something i’d later regret.

    anyway, i hope traveling to NY has given you a breath of fresh air. i know it will. traveling is magical in that way. good luck, holly!

    • Holly

      Yes, I know exactly what you mean.

      Nowadays I’m all about quality over quantity when it comes to blogging. When I was post three times a week the quality of the content I was producing wasn’t great because I felt rushed, and I felt like I had to write because I had a schedule to stick to.

      Thank you. πŸ™‚

  6. I hope your trip helped you reset. Seems like you had a blast! I should totally try taking a staycation to my own city, doing all the touristy things as a vacation…
    Anyways, I came back to my blog few months ago, and was shocked at how little content was actually published on it, despite a huge number of posts in my WordPress. Turns out I had more posts half written than I ever managed to publish, mostly from the past year of my blog hiatus, where I was trying to make a painful come back, but just couldn’t find the words. I think, given these blogs are for us to grow on and record our lives and thoughts, whatever comes to us comes, and we don’t need to force ourselves.
    Because I was sick of seeing all the clutter of half written drafts that won’t see the light if day (but maybe in the future as something else entirely?) I spent a day cleaning my drafts up, transferring ones I felt I might want to expand on in the future to my Evernote, and ditching the rest. I feel a lot clearer already, and I’m hoping not having so much clutter will help me be more word-productive. So much has happened, seems like, to both of us in the past year, but I hope both of us continue to find our voices in writing πŸ™‚