The past is calling

27th November 2013

I swear I’m not being ignorant. I’m just a very busy bee right at the moment. I’ve also been poorly.

Last Sunday I started with the flu, and no, I’m not being over dramatic about a cold. I had a sore throat, blocked nose and I ended up throwing up a few times. I barely had any sleep so I was exhausted. The flu couldn’t have come at a worse time as my mum and nan came to visit me on Wednesday and stayed over night in a hotel nearby. I was grateful to see my mum, particularly after being so ill, but I felt so guilty because I couldn’t enjoy myself fully and I didn’t want to be miserable for my family.

I took the week off uni to recover. There was no way I was going to lectures in that state. I ended up bumping in some of the people in my class when I went to meet my mum on Wednesday, which probably didn’t look good considering I hadn’t been in uni. I honestly don’t care. I only really take time off when I really need it and this was one of those times.

The bad timing also meant that I submitted a piece of coursework without properly checking it through. I was annoyed because there was some basic mistakes in it that I know I will pay the price for. I’ve got way too much work on my hands and I am so stressed.

Needless to say, I’m not enjoying my second year of uni and I want to just graduate already. Some days I sit here and wish that I hadn’t taken geography as a degree. There are thousands and thousands of people taking geography as a degree in this country and let’s be honest, I’m not at one of the best universities. I can’t help but think that any job I apply will also have been applied for by people with degrees from better universities, with more relevant work experience and extra curricular activities. I have absolutely no work experience related to geography and I can’t find any anywhere. As a friend of mine put it, it’s all about who you know. And if you don’t know anyone working in a geography related sector then you are screwed.

A few weeks ago we had a lecture on CV writing. This is when I realised that I am practically useless. A CV should be two pages. Mine is barely one. I’m not comfortable writing down my A Level results on there because I am ashamed of them. Under the headings Skills, Activities and Interests I really had to search my brain for ideas. I don’t have any relevant to geography. Sure, I can code a website, use Photoshop and swim but what relevance has that got to my degree?

If anything this has made me realise that I am a boring person with no interests what so ever. I don’t even like geography for god sake! I should have taken more opportunities in my first year, like joining a society (although none of them interested me) or becoming a course rep. I regret decisions that I made in the past and now I am stuck.

I feel so lost at the moment. 🙁

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  1. Cat

    That sounded like a bad case of the flu! I hope you’re feeling better now.

    Sorry to hear that you aren’t enjoying your second year or uni though. I feel like it’s hard to get work experience in your field when you’re still in school. Some places are only looking for experienced people.

    I think it’s a good thing to have some skills and activities not related to your major though. It can show how versitile you can be! Hopefully you can still pick up some things to add to your CV. It’s not too late! I hope uni will get better for you!