The past is calling
27th November 2013
I swear I’m not being ignorant. I’m just a very busy bee right at the moment. I’ve also been poorly.
Last Sunday I started with the flu, and no, I’m not being over dramatic about a cold. I had a sore throat, blocked nose and I ended up throwing up a few times. I barely had any sleep so I was exhausted. The flu couldn’t have come at a worse time as my mum and nan came to visit me on Wednesday and stayed over night in a hotel nearby. I was grateful to see my mum, particularly after being so ill, but I felt so guilty because I couldn’t enjoy myself fully and I didn’t want to be miserable for my family.
I took the week off uni to recover. There was no way I was going to lectures in that state. I ended up bumping in some of the people in my class when I went to meet my mum on Wednesday, which probably didn’t look good considering I hadn’t been in uni. I honestly don’t care. I only really take time off when I really need it and this was one of those times.
The bad timing also meant that I submitted a piece of coursework without properly checking it through. I was annoyed because there was some basic mistakes in it that I know I will pay the price for. I’ve got way too much work on my hands and I am so stressed.
Needless to say, I’m not enjoying my second year of uni and I want to just graduate already. Some days I sit here and wish that I hadn’t taken geography as a degree. There are thousands and thousands of people taking geography as a degree in this country and let’s be honest, I’m not at one of the best universities. I can’t help but think that any job I apply will also have been applied for by people with degrees from better universities, with more relevant work experience and extra curricular activities. I have absolutely no work experience related to geography and I can’t find any anywhere. As a friend of mine put it, it’s all about who you know. And if you don’t know anyone working in a geography related sector then you are screwed.
A few weeks ago we had a lecture on CV writing. This is when I realised that I am practically useless. A CV should be two pages. Mine is barely one. I’m not comfortable writing down my A Level results on there because I am ashamed of them. Under the headings Skills, Activities and Interests I really had to search my brain for ideas. I don’t have any relevant to geography. Sure, I can code a website, use Photoshop and swim but what relevance has that got to my degree?
If anything this has made me realise that I am a boring person with no interests what so ever. I don’t even like geography for god sake! I should have taken more opportunities in my first year, like joining a society (although none of them interested me) or becoming a course rep. I regret decisions that I made in the past and now I am stuck.
I feel so lost at the moment.