5th August 2012
I had a pretty crap night last night. I was lying in bed, unable to sleep, and then I realised that I couldn’t breathe properly.
I sat up in bed and tried to control my breathing, but my throat felt tight and my neck was in a lot of pain. I know when I’m not feeling well and I was pretty worried. I text Tyrone and asked him for some advice as he’s a St John Ambulance volunteer. I decided to wake my parents in the end because I thought I was going to have to go to the hospital. This was about 2am in the morning. I had a drink of water but I still felt bad. My mum made me a cup of tea and I ate some biscuits. I wasn’t having trouble drinking or eating. I sat upright watching telly for a bit but I still felt horrible.
I was too scared to fall asleep because I was worried about not being able to breathe properly. My mum told me to share her bed with her so that she could check on me throughout the night. Eventually, after taking some painkillers I fell asleep about 4am. I woke up feeling a little better but I still have the pain in my neck and my throat doesn’t feel 100% right. If it doesn’t get better I’ll have to go to the doctors. However, I think I have anxiety problems and issues with stress. I had an anxiety attack last year after A-level results day and it scared the hell out of me. It’s a horrible feeling. I just want to get well again.
Apart from my near death experience, I’ve had a pretty good week. On Tuesday I went out for lunch with my friend Becky at Frankie and Benny’s. On Wednesday I went to the cinema with Tyrone to watch The Dark Knight Rises. I’m not going to say too much about it because I know how angry I would be if someone spoiled it for me in blog post. It was a pretty good film but I don’t think it was quite as good as the two previous films. I was stupidly excited about going to see it though and I have to thank Tyrone for putting up with me talking through most of it haha!!
Today I went to Cheshire Oaks which is a designer outlet with a range of shops selling various brands at really low prices. My mum thought it would be a good idea to go shopping and take my mind of last night. My parents managed to find some bargains in the shops but I hadn’t really got much money to spend. However, I did buy my self 3 of the Sookie Stackhouse books for £5. They should keep me going for a while.
I get my A-level results on the 16th of August, which isn’t helping my anxiety problems. I’m trying to keep my mind off it but that day will change my life. If all goes well I move to Liverpool in September. If all goes bad, I don’t know what I’m going to do.
Positive thoughts are required!