Empfire

I shared a blog post earlier in the year about why I was ditching my blogging schedule and how I wanted to take a slower approach to blogging.

To be quite honest, I didn’t think it would slow down as much as it has. I feel like I’ve barely published any posts this year at all.

It’s like I’ve got out of the habit of writing. I’ve lost my mojo. I have ideas but when it comes to turning my thoughts into words I just can’t seem to do it.

A few months ago, I broke down in tears because I felt lonely. I felt like I was a horrible person who drove people away from me. I felt like people didn’t want to spend time with me because I’m constantly miserable or depressed. I felt like I’d isolated myself.

Just before we moved house I had a panic attack one night over the fact the house we’d bought was further away from Liverpool and not as close to a train station as the one we had been renting was, and this made me feel even more isolated than before.

But the last few weeks have reminded that I’m definitely not alone. Far from it.

We’re officially in the new house!

The last few weeks have been completely crazy. The day after we picked up the keys (i.e. the day after I shared my last blog post) we started decorating the new house, and we spent the next two weeks working our arses off.

I’ve never been so tired in my life. I was working 7 and a half hours a day at my job, and then going home just to work even harder, painting the new house and packing up the old one. My entire body ached, and as I didn’t have time to work out, my hip pain became unbearable. This resulted in a trip to the doctors to get some stronger painkillers.